So yea, Valentines Day....What about it?
When I was a kid, Valentines Day was about telling the girl or guy you liked and maybe get a kiss or their phone number. Another benefit from that was all the candy to chocolate you got from other kids or friends. But a main thing you got on Valentines Day was cards that meant something.
As a kid, you think the smallest and nicest of cards from someone you like means they love you, but really they don't or not ready to move on to the next step.
As a teenager/young adult, I "got" carnations in high school. I say "got" because no one ever got me one. Because no one liked me or wanted to show that they did. I bought one for myself because I liked the flowers. I'm a nature nut. Sure, there was a candy bar or two and a card saying "You look nice" or "I like you", but I felt the flower was more important because it means something.
But I'm out of highschool, and Valentines Day is just there now.
I have a mixed reaction to Valentines Day. I hate it because the couples. I hate them so much because I'm tired of seeing them all "gushy and lovey-dovey" to the point where I can't stand it anymore. It's not only that why I hate them. It's because they're happy.
I want that happiness. To talk to someone and love in each other's heart. Someone to sit down and listen to me and my problems, to tell me that everything is going to be fine when it's not.
I've leanred that there are women that are the best support. I know a woman that I met and she was there to give me advice, not about love, but about how to treat a woman.
She told me how to treat a woman, to love her and appreciate who she was and not what you want her to be. Like an idiot, I told her I loved her and fucked everything with us over. If I could turn back time, I would prevent myself from saying that because I miss her, not as a woman, but a friend.
Valentines Day is just here now, not as a day to show your partner you love them, but just a quick excuse to fuck. I mean sure, today is a reason to get down and make love to one another, but it's only out of spite these days with people my age.
I wouldn't know what it's like to have sex because I'm a virgin. I'm waiting to find who will love me for me, someone that appreciates me not for money to impress, but for how I love that person.
I should stop talking. In short, Valentines Day has been commercialized for sex and not REAL love, but that's just my opinion.